Neptune and death...

The cycle of Neptune spans about 164 years and stays in a sign about 12 years. These figures are not exact but approximate. Neptune last entered Piscis early in April 2011. At that time I remember being in two minds whether to go on holidays close to me in Europe or to visit family across the pond in Argentina... I went on holidays with my then husband.

Some strange things happened like a panic attack next to a cliff next to a crevice into the sea (I never in my life had panic attacks), also I attended some art classes (also did not do any art at that time) and ended up painting a spiralling line to do with my life story and the effect of my father's death (this time transiting Uranus over my natal Scorpio Sun and Mars in opposition); and all other events in my life. I also painted the scene of the panic and it looked like a woman's profile which I later attributed to being my mother's profile with a background of a setting Sun. At that time, looking backwards, all those events I related to me not listening to my deep intuition and establishing a connection to the soon event that will mark that part of my life: my mother's death about 6 weeks later.

woman and setting sun / scary cliff

This story is not time-bound. Spiral of my life...

From then on a series of episodes of depression will take me through taking antidepressants by doctor's recommendation for a few years and seeing a series of counsellors and therapists lead by my own search for meaning of what was happening in me. It took a little longer for me to enter this journey of more intense soul searching through the various teachers I engaged with since 2015 onwards.

• Brene Brown and the Living Brave Semester (2016),

• Toko-pa Turner - Belonging book club (2018), Courting the dream and Dream Walking (2019)

• Bethany Webster - the Mother wound (2019)

• TreeSisters and Clare Dubois - Inner Journey, ... (2019-2020)

• Heather Jo Flores - Permaculture women, Permaculture certificate (2020-2021)

• Chameli Ardagh - Women Wisdom school, Godess temple (2020-2022)

• Psychological Therapeutic Astrology and Human Design/ Gene keys (2022-current)

• 8th Chakra (2023) and Awake Entrepreneur Blueprint (2025) - Hemma Haridin

This journey was not only mine, the world was changing and I was just catching up with the party. I had dipped my toes in the 90's, but in all truth I had much to learn still and my needs took me elsewhere, a path I still needed to walk, the profession I had trained for, the journey of immersion in a system that will cause such a strong reaction in my body that resulted in physical illness, but that was necessary.

So, returning to present time - April 2025 - Neptune entered Aries, crossed the gap between the ending cycle and this new 164 year cycle that commences, another Argentine dies.

This time someone who I do not relate to directly, but not only that represented a hopeful change in an obsolete religion, but that was related to the story of my younger years during dictatorship. Francisco was a Pope with a vow of poverty, from the global South, who refused much of the Vatican hypocrisy. Not that the rusty, unchangeable catholic machine could be changed much, but at least he made a subtle change to the silence, he spoke for many that had been shunned so far by the church such as LGBT+, and criticised the savage targeting of the marginalised in the world, namely migrants and refugees by powers such as USA up until the last day in this plane.

It has taken me a few hours to write these few paragraphs, I am recovering from one of those colds that linger and feel like my body is clearing some old stuff out, my head is still fuzzy and my nose slightly sore, not as bad as previous few days. My meditation today included my catholic beliefs, suffering is part of being considered worthy, holy, part of life, nothing can happen without suffering, and the Christic image in the cross before the resurrection that was celebrated once more yesterday, forever imprinted in our young retinas.

But not forever, even 65 years later this can go, with Francisco who knew of this, suffering no longer is a condition for worthiness, for belonging, or for any kind of success or growth. In fact it never was, it was just a thought, an image, not a reality.

My family had a strong influence of this unconscious vibration of Neptunian energy and it shows in my Piscis Moon and Neptune conjunct Sun, both in a beautiful trine. But also my evolution towards my ascendent in Piscis calls for a purification of these old habits of suffering, be it by poverty, multiple early deaths in the family, and a loss of the real spirituality, the every day understanding of the sacredness of life in all its forms. There I am.